Am allowed to try for a baby in October - should we?

I am sorry to hear about your situation. I had a very complicated pregnancy and had to deliver early so I know how scary it can be to think that you will have the same problems in subsequent pregs. I couldn't imagine losing one. I have more reasons to NOT have another child than I do to have one, but ultimately I know that I would regret it for the rest of my life if I do not. You might too.